Pragma was a term used by Greeks to express a longstanding love. It was the type of love that could only be developed from years of commitment, patience, tolerance, and willingness to stand in love…. give over receiving. Language can limit us in expressing our vast variety of emotions and experiences. Language can even influence how we experience the world, beliefs, learn and even how we perceive our environments. It is a very powerful influencer on cultures. Especially with a word like love, how can one word express so many feelings and levels! I would even go as far to say, that word alone is the one thing that makes the pangs and spurns of existence… worth it. It is love that pushes us to create, to embrace, to touch, to forgive, to give… every action worth doing was started with love. Even if it it came from ‘love of self,’ or as the Greeks would say Philautia. This one simple word creates life. For what is life without love?
I think the Greeks were right in creating 6 words to express the 6 different types of Love… especially Pragma. That, I think, is the richest of Loves and should be separated out from the others. It is the one type of Love that must fight the hardest to overcome the rocky winds of time, to be able to look into someone deeply and see the light and the dark complexities (the grays) and to fully embrace those complexities that make up their unique imperfect human form. I stand back and say this is true beauty, the rose with the thorns. I am committed to who and what you are, love you unconditionally, wear the battle scars of life with you. Through that type of shared commitment to each other, love will change it’s form and reach Pragma.
My Father asked me as a young child… “Is it love that keeps a marriage together or is it commitment?” I know my Father well enough that his questions are never the obvious answers. Even being as young as I was, I knew the answer was commitment. Thankfully I was able to witness it first hand, many never get to witness Pragma. I saw my parents followthrough on their shared commitment to fully and wholeheartedly commit to each other their entirety. It was not easy for them, especially being from two completely different cultures, there was a lot of misunderstandings, a lot of struggle. They had the story we all want though, love at first site… to just know when you know!
My Father knew the moment my Mom walked towards him with her sunburst mismatched-colored clothing and her sideways smirk, that he was looking at his forever. It does happen, for a few lucky ones. My luck would have it that it happened to many of my family members, a lot of short engagements going back several generations. Love at first site followed by marriages lasting until their final breaths. Yes, I come from a deeply seeded hopeless-romantic family. I’m the unusual one being still single at my age and of course I still get, “one day you will find the one,” always followed by concerned eyes. I can only laugh and smile and say… “but of course, fairytales and unicorns exist for all.” Mind you I know not giving up on it is half the battle. Still with all that passion we have in us and capacity to love deeply… My parents had to overcome a lot to reach Pragma. I can say with certainty their love has reached the richness of Pragma and I know it will hold strong until the end. That question, to this day, was one of the most valuable lessons my father taught me the answer to.
This is why I have been very selective who I give my time to and why I am still single, it is by choice. I will not settle, and what do I mean when I say settle? I want to find someone that has that same view of love and marriage, coming from commitment. Why go into a commitment with someone that thinks it can easily be broken by feelings, not looking perfect, being imperfect, hard times, or how you don’t make them feel the trill, the rush anymore?! Commitments should never be ruled by wavering feelings. Your yes should be yes and your no should be no. Everyone needs to show up in their relationships and not wait for the other one to make the first move. We are responsible for our own actions so we must always try to take the best ones regardless of the negative actions of others. In any transaction in life, outside of a relationship, that you commit to… we find it important to stick with it until the end. So why are we so careless with the most important commitment of your life? All commitments should be equally honored and not gone into lightly.
I know there are a lot of random discussions that could derive from this, but I’m focusing my ideas on one conclusion… I see in our society a death to Pragma. I am trying to explore that causalities and consequences. I think by the time my generation reaches old age, there will not be many that have been married to one person their whole lives. I think our time is distinctly different than any past eras due to technology. It has impacted relationships in all forms, in good ways and bad. I have mixed feelings about all this. Our world is ever changing and opening us up to newer and newer possibilities on how to live a single life. I know as a woman today I can live a fulfilling life even if I decide to never marry. I will have a variety of expressions of love that I will experience on different levels even without marriage. I have already and I wouldn’t change any of it. But, I also know that we don’t become that butterfly until we struggle in the cocoon. So having less and less of those types of committed life long relationships will we miss out on the greatest of love, Pragma? What will that do to our society, I wonder, and how we treat each other and commit to relationships in all forms? Are we creating a new standard of love, a new version, and will it be detriment to us or something more positive that has yet to be explored?
I know I have a limited understanding of the world, and not fully aware of all my influences. That said, it is a deeply routed, and a daily goal of mine to stay a ‘free spirit.’ I think Ruth Abbey (who is describing Nietzsche’s concept of a ‘Free Spirit’ in her definition), she says it best… “Autonomy in thought and action, intellectual strength and daring, desire and ability to pursue the truth, capacity for cruelty and the skills of dialogue.” So what I’m trying to say is that this is bigger than the questions I ask here and their not black and white answers. I know every one’s life has so much complexity and we do only have one life to live, so why live with someone unhappy? I pose that maybe we are becoming more superficial, selfish and it’s less to do with unhappiness. Maybe if we focus more on making our commitments count, thought out more carefully before we make them… perhaps then we would give it the best we’ve got every time. Fight for the best out of each other, push each other through the hard times.
I see less authenticity, less vulnerability in relationships the older I get. I see a society swiping away Pragma. With more choices, more opportunity with dating tools the less we will fight through difficult times, imperfections. Perhaps the next swipe right will bring someone newer and better. Then they quickly discard them the moment it gets uncomfortable and vulnerable, or worse yet until they don’t fit their unrealistic view of perfection. Also, “keeping your options open” and never allowing yourself to commit and focus on one relationship at a time, is just another way to avoid being hurt or trying to have it all. Ultimately gaining nothing and becoming vacant of love. We are blinded by superficiality, an illusion of perfect beauty, endless filters, we’ve photoshopped our love away. Because of this, We will never reach any sort of depth of intimacy, or reach that rich deeply-seeded love that the Greeks talk about. I have found myself falling into the belief that Pragma may have already found her death. It is hard to not lose all hope. I know I am an Idealist and a romantic. I can’t imagine living in any other frame of mind. Although it is difficult at times and there are moments I want to become a pessimist, that the values I was raised on I won’t find in another.
This is my disclaimer: I know my weaknesses and know I may have not always chosen wisely, perhaps never. I can say after being beaten down more than once, you can end up becoming the thing that sucked you under. I can understand on another level now why some end up becoming the very thing they hate, live in mistrust. I will however, learn and grow everyday to try to become stronger. To reach for higher and better out of myself and someone else. To love deeper and fight hard to keep my heart open and to not succumb to the gloom and build my walls and hide… from the greatest thing called Love
So as my rant comes to a final phase. I say this, perfection doesn’t exist it is the dogma of our society, that many have accepted as truth. That Perfection is reachable, that it give us more happiness, gives us fulfillment, will make us worthy of love. That Perfection is linked with love is a falsehood altogether. I see us linking it in all our forms of media, magazines, and internet. There’s no escaping that daily mantra that whispers and sometimes shouts…. the more perfect you can become the more loved you will be. When vulnerability leaves a room so does love. Vulnerability is showing our imperfections. we can not gain lasting love without it. We are all chasing this illusion, this unreachable perfection. This mindset is the very thing that is killing our chances to ever finding a committed lasting relationship. Instead we need to be acutely aware of humanities imperfectness, and when we do finally commit we commit to loving unconditionally. If we do not we will lose Pragma, and perhaps the very purpose for our existence to love and be loved. To truly love someone is to love their beautiful imperfections.
I will not give up, and I hope you do not either. If the time comes to share your life with someone or not, either way we can still carry these principles into every relationship and friendship. If I do get married, they will have my full commitment and I will fight everyday to be the best I can be for myself and them. As I commit to all my family and friends as well. I will respect them, be honest, show kindness, thoughtfulness, patience, forgiveness and understanding. Even if I don’t feel like it, I will commit to every new day to love at my best to be at my best. I will fail many times but so will everyone else. Never stop loving and, quoting what many say, be the change you want to see in the world! Love Love Love!
*Picture taken in Paris by Sacre-Coeur, during my adventures. One of my favorites on my trip that I took. Love to express ideas through my photography. Even better, when it fits a post perfectly. Hope you enjoyed my ramblings and thanks for reading 🙂